Insanity Day 1 and 2!

Soooooo, hello friends! On January 4th, I spent some time in the gym tanning bed, and looking in the mirror with only the bed lights on, it reveals just how HORRIBLE you look. I came to the realization that "Kind of" watching what I eat, and going to the gym once a day and doing 3 miles on the elliptical wasn't making the difference I wanted. If you know me personally, or read my first blog post, you know I used to be in shape, like top athlete, could kick your ass shape and now standing here at 189 pounds, in size 14 jeans I just feel like a failure of epic proportions I am failing myself, I am failing as a good healthy role model for my daughter, and I am failing my husband (because he has only me to look at till death do we part).
      This brings me to the decision I made that night. In April of last year I started the Insanity program and got through three weeks of it losing about 14 pounds. NO I did not quit, after the third week I had to pack and move an entire household into storage while taking care of a one year old alone. I started this program up again yesterday, and yes I started over, because since the last time I did it I gained ALL the weight back plus a few more. Day one was difficult, but invigorating, seeing that I am fatter but much more in shape this time around. I was able to complete more of the workout and do more correct push ups.
     Now, on to Day Two... I woke up this morning so INCREDIBLY SORE. I made EVERY excuse in the world not to do this workout, BUT looking at myself in the mirror changed my mind very quickly, so when Funky Punks went down for a nap I got my ass up and did it! After the 10 minute warm up the soreness let up, a LITTLE, the rest I just pushed through!
  HILARIOUS THOUGHTS THAT WENT THROUGH MY HEAD DURING THE WORKOUT-
"Man if I didn't have such giant boobs I could jump higher"
"Why the hell do I even need boobs!"
"I am the most in shape fat person I know"
"Keep jumping or your pants are never going to fit"
"This is what you get for loving food so much!"
"Wish I was flat chested."
So, a lot of the thoughts were about my giant boobs, and they are no joke GIANT, about 30 pounds of weight and cause me a LOT of back pain, even on normal, no workout days.

So friends, my words of wisdom of the day are, NEVER QUIT, there is never any excuse not to be healthy, you only have one life, do it right.

If you are keeping up with me each blog post, you will be seeing me struggle, but also hopefully, in the end, I will reach my goals to being a healthier me, and all the while I Hope I do you proud and MOTIVATE you as well! Please leave comments! I love knowing people are following and I am not just talking to myself! If I wanted to do that I would just talk to my husband! ;)

Now to pass out! :)
Peace, love and health!
B